•Guys Like Us•

Guys like me are hardly ever wanted, you know??
We're defined by our sadness like silhouettes of depression,
Shadows cast on white walls, even the detached parts of us are flaws,
Chapped lips, the cracks filled in with blood & skin residue,
Hearts vulnerable but impenetrable at the same time,
We're the breath you can't catch & the words you can't speak,
You wish your thoughts had never stumbled across us,
We're charcoal & ashes & tears
Slapped together to form fallible dusty masses covered in blood & doused in pills,
Swimming in the hollow depths of our empty smiles,
Suffocating in the aftershocks of feeling,
You can see our homes burning & smoking in the space between our eyes & reality,
That's the fire that swallows us whole, night after night after endless night..

Guys like me are hardly ever wanted, you know??
There's more than just distance between us & happiness, but not enough between us & hell,
We only know to exist when we're in pain,
Everyone has a way to hurt but we would hurt for anything,
Baby feet & memories erupting from split wrists,
The things we hate most are the ones we do best,
But we're never disaster-oriented or stubborn enough to find the morgue, at least not consciously,
We crave love & affection, but refuse to accept it unless we feel we deserve it,
But love cannot be manufactured, it cannot be earned like a paycheck,
Yet still, we keep working,
We keep typing & counting the numbers until our fingers scream for help,
Each & every mistake accounted for,
We're left in the kitchen with glass bottles displayed like antiques,
Encased in sorrow & placed in the museums of our deaths,
Tears falling like rain-
As if the rain can wash away the sharpness of the knives scattered across the tiles,
We're used up & we're sad & drunk & perpetually waiting by the phone
For someone to pick up & tell us that we did good, we did good,
We're worth nothing more than the dark depths of our souls,
& the white-hot tumours of rage taking over our hearts,
Because we're falling to pieces & we're never good enough to want,
See, guys like us are hardly ever wanted, you know??